28 September 2010
Failed.
I've never tried so hard, getting myself so tired. I can push myself to revise till 12am midnight or even later, and even worse - wake up at 4am in the morning to do some last read-through. Punched the wall with my knuckles when i couldnt take the stress anymore, mum and dad saw me cried so badly. Deep inside, i just hoped much for a top ten position in the class. People always said efforts work. But I guessed this will never happen on me or perhaps way too hard for me. It seems that im just bringing myself more and more shitty disappointments. Got back my results today. I broke down, a couple of times. I'm sick of seeing it.
I failed. Failed to reach my goal. My glimpse of hope is getting darker. Im never given the rights to be in the competition ground, i thought too much.
All these doesnt matter to me anymore, im tired of hearing it.
Now i shall do what i can with revisions,
and just wished to be promoted at the end of the year.
