16 October 2010
bad dream
this is really scary, i swear. it was so real, that when i woke up i start crying. it goes like this, I was waiting at the bustop with my bro and sis. they then left their bags on the ground out of a sudden and i've no idea where they actually went to. so I looked around, hoping to catch a glimpse of them. however, they didnt appear anywhere so i went home alone. not long after i reached home, sis was running back with her bag. she didnt mention anything and just when I was wondering where was my bro, the tv shared the news on my bro's death for he was being killed by someone. I was shocked, my heart sank. I tried not to believe it, it was too sudden.
and then i quickly came awake, and I was too afraid. Tears rolled down my cheeks and I walked slowly back to bedroom. Deep inside, I hoped I would see my sis and bro sleeping soundly. Yes, they are still around. I went back to living room and laid down on my mattress. I thought and thought, how terrible the dream was. I've never felt so afraid before. I guess its because I'm really scared that all of them would leave me alone. I know I wont be able to take it, I know I need them. They are my family.
and i'm going to cherish the times with them from now on, idw the same thing that happened in the dream to come into reality. I love them, they are all parts of me. They will always be, my family.
