26 February 2011
something's wrong.
I felt that something is strange, is missing. In me :(
Past 3 days was having common tests, and I seemed to be carrying this thought. "If I fail or not, it doesnt matter to me. No point discussing whether I get it right." Worst of all, I really believed this time round i did not put in my very best. Even if I stayed around in school for revision, or people thought I was working hard for it, the fact is that I did not give my all. I really dont know what is going on with me, I feel so lousy inside. Disgusted by this sudden change of attitude of mine. I dont have this thoughts in the past at all, I would want to know whether I get positive or negative results or whether the papers were hard for the rest too this and that, but now I no longer do. I probably am stuck somewhere, and I really need to move myself to the right track. All I know is, these really sucks to me. I want to find myself back, back please.

